Obsessing… Didn’t know that there’s a post rock/post hardcore Christian band around. Just perfect.
Having bipolar is so complicated. I’m a very emotional person and I tend to go extremes. Finding the balance in things is not really my specialty. I’m an all or nothing kind of person. Either I give it my all or nothing at all (like the song). Because of my condition, my faith is also seasonal. Sometimes, I’m very much on fire for God, and sometimes I’m just going through the motions.
I thought it was just me, but then I realize everyone is undergoing these seasons. Seasons when we’re so hyped up for God, and seasons when we are struggling and barely holding on.
Through the years, I always find it annoying when I’m all hyped up and then the next thing I know, it’s gone. I thought “What am I doing wrong here? What’s going on?”. Then one day I heard the phrase “when you decided to be a Christian”. Only then did I realize that being a Christian is not an emotion, it’s a decision. The real Born Again experience was when we decided to live for God, not when we feel like we want to be a Christian because it’s fun or because we like someone in the church (hahaha), or any other reason. So then, I thought, “now I know that I need to decide, but how do I keep it real?”
In 1 Peter 1: 22- 25 NIV
Since you have in obedience to the truth purified your souls for a sincere love of the brethren, fervently love one another from the heart, for you have been born again not of seed which is perishable but imperishable, that is, through the living and enduring word of God.
For, “ALL FLESH IS LIKE GRASS, AND ALL ITS GLORY LIKE THE FLOWER OF GRASS. THE GRASS WITHERS, AND THE FLOWER FALLS OFF,
BUT THE WORD OF THE LORD ENDURES FOREVER.” And this is the word which was preached to you.
I found that there’s only one way to keep our faith real and imperishable, and that’s the Word of God. A constant reading of our Bible will always draw us closer to God. There’s no other way, really. We can keep on attending our churches, memorize all the songs that’s being sang. But, without reading your Bible you can’t really know God on a personal level. You might get a dose of Word through your pastors, but that’s their personal revelation from God, passed down to you. Don’t you want to get a personal revelation from God, personally? You need to know God on a personal level, and believe me, it’s awesome! And God wants to reveal Himself to you. The Bible is His Word, and He wants to speak to You.
We can have a huge dose of church, a huge dose of worship. But without a huge dose of God’s Word. It’s going to be a struggle.
In the end, when we are down to nothing… God is always…. always… more than enough.
He does… holds our universe… There’s comfort in that.
hi po nbsa q po ung "Everything Changes…" paran amlungkot lunkot nio po... Life goes on po
Asketh - Anonymous
thanks sa concern :) God bless
The lesson I learned recently is that sometimes even the strongest principles, beliefs or relationships you have, can change. Sometimes slowly, sometimes in a glimpse.
How happiness, laughter, and fellowship turn into sadness, tears and the feeling of being alone. How the best days of the week can be the worst. How the things you look forward for in the past, now, is just a memory too painful to even reminisce.
I’m not just broken for me, I’m broken for the people that these tragedy affects. Yes, I call it a “tragedy”. Maybe a simple embrace and fellowship could mend our hearts, maybe not.
If time permits for us to be together again, I know it’ll be a wonderful day. Till then, don’t go too far. Not from me, but from what we believe in.